Weekly Charge Vol.13

Saw the doc yesterday, my white count was 1.2, my nutrafills were 500 (they need to 1000), and my platelets were 59. I did gain 2 lbs to 152 lbs. We are doing chemo agian this week but I have to stay home until Monday. But I am finally caught up with Battlestar Galatica.

She Doesn't Hate Me!

I had come to the understanding that every relationship I had had in the past was based on getting them to love me. This didn't have any good results, so a change was needed. I decided the change in this new relationship with the cute Christian girl (let's call her Jen), was that I wasn't going to focus on getting her to love me. My new theory was to get her not to hate me.

To my surprise it worked! I mean before I knew it it was the sixth month mark and she still didn't hate me! In fact she really liked me! The best part was I really liked her.

To test how well she liked me I thought I would ask her if she wanted to look at rings. Her reply shocked me. She agreed...

The Weekly Charger Vol.12

Well I'm being poisoned as I type. My white count was 1.4 and red count was 700. They asked if I wanted to chance it and have chemo, I agreed. If I don't go anywhere till Sunday or Monday I should be fine. It will mean I wont be able to go to the movies for a couple of months. And May is packed with movies I want to see.

There is an upside, we got our allowance from crazy uncle Bush and we bought a pool to do our part in the whole economy stimulation. So I will have to stay home and swim all day I guess. Darn!!!!!

Keep up the good thoughts!

Change It Makes Cents!

I have always been of the mind set that communication is the most important thing in any relationship. I am wrong.

What I had been doing on the internet to meet women and to grow socially was not working. So I made a change, I started an eHarmony account. This was a bigger change then I realized at the time, for I was trusting on someone else's judgment over my own in finding women to date.

Well that turned out to be a very good decision. I met a shy cute girl who was intelligent, goal oriented, independent, Christian, and did I mention cute.

I have come to understand that the most important thing in any relationship, or rather the core thread in any relation ship is change. After a few months of dating this cute Christian girl, I began to notice that I was analyzing the marriages and long relationships around me. I had always analyzed my own relationships but never others.

What I saw was change in every one. Weather for bad or better every one changed in there core. This reminds me of what happens when one comes to Christ:
Corinthians II 5:17a "Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature..."
We change!

I was changing and I had to make a choice weather for bad or better...

The Weekly Charge Vol. 11 with Sir Lance

Last Thursday we added a new member to our family, a 7 month old King Charles Caviler named Lance. He's a puppy mill rescue, so he's shy and doesn't know a lot of common dog things like what treats are. Molly (our Westy) lays a heavy hand on him when it comes to food or toys. The thing I've learned the most is that Molly is a really dominant dog. She walks around with the attitude that the world exists because she wants it to.

We got the PET scan results and they show pretty much what the CT showed, with some more decrease in the lymph sites in my chest and abdomen. My counts are good except for my platelets so no chemo this week, but next week we're going back to a full dose.

As for the story, well I'll try to get the next chapter out this week.

Jesus Loves This Guy! Weekly Charge Vol.10

Me and the wife found a T-shirt this weekend with the phrase "Jesus loves this guy!" on it. I now have it. I like the shirt for two reasons: 1) It's true, and 2) It's just a little bit conceded. I like things that make people think and this shirt does.

I saw the doctor yesterday and the news was mixed. My white count was low 1.18 and my red count was 500; both to low for chemo. So we decided to go back on neupogen this week.

While reviewing my case he said something interesting. He asked me when the last scan was done, to which I said sometime in March. As he was mumbling the CT back he said, "Nothing in the Liver and no new sites in the lymph glands."

I asked, "Nothing in the liver?"

He replied, "Yes."

I asked, "The PET scan in January showed sites in the liver, right?"

He replied, "Yes."

I asked, "And the CT in March shows no sites in the liver?"

He replied, "Yes."

I then asked, "So there's nothing in the Liver?"

He replied, "Yes."

He went on the say that we would be doing another PET scan this week but that things look really good. For those who (like me) are having a hard time understanding this, nothing in the liver is a really big thing! Especially when you consider that I had not had chemo for six weeks at the time of the CT.

Thus, "Jesus Loves This Guy!"

And thank you all for the prayers and thoughts, they are as much a part of this as all the meds and doctors.

I Should Watch More Religious Crap!

So I was watching the Pastor Melissa Scott tonight at about 12am, it's like a sermon in which she super analyzes every thing. My kind of show, anyway, she was talking about what the good works meant in Ephesians 2:10. Her conclusion was that God is working in us to do His good works, and not that these good works are the key to our salvation.

So I was thinking about this and about Life Church's message from this week about how we (men) as warriors are to be passionate about what battle God has given us to fight. Which I have come to understand in my life is, in part, the writing of this here blog thing.

And while the story seems to be wondering aimlessly in my social life, I realized not only where I need to take the story; but also that God is still working within me to bring about a knowledge of Him and His good works.

So like I said, I need to watch more religious crap. I also need to stop starting paragraphs with so.

Rejection City

Living with your friends is a little more acceptable when dating then say, being 28 and still living with your parents. So I took Jess up on the offer to live one year with others in pursuit of spiritual development and friendship.

It was a great year. I can say this, while we didn't necessarily pursue that spiritual development all that well, I walked away with some pretty good friends.

During this time I also continued to develop my social skills with women. Jess did her best to help by becoming my stylist. Growing up Jewish left me with this funny style of spending money; but when a hot girl (weather your friend or not) tells you, "Even I would date you in those jeans!" moneys becomes nothing. With my time being divided between the house and work, and the fact that I didn't drink; I decided to start internet dating.

If I was trying to avoid being rejected, I would have gone to a bar. The first site I joined after three months left me with over a hundred emails out and no returns. That would be like going to a bar and every women you said hi to never saying hi back. Thats a 100% rejection rate. My great solution was to try other sites that were similar to this one; I garnered the same results 0-25 on one and 0-10 on another.

My grand experiment was gathering some horrible results!

Chain Letter (the kind of crap you do at 2am)

Here are the rules:
1. The rules of the game get posted at the beginning.
2. Each player answers the questions about themselves.
3. At the end of the post, the player tags 5 people and posts their name, then goes to their blogs and leaves them a comment, letting them know they've been tagged and asking them to read your blog.

What was I doing 10 years ago:
Ten years ago I was working as a night clerk at 7-11 and had just been put on the transplant list.

Five Snacks I enjoy:
1. Queso, queso and more queso
2. Candy
3. Ice cream
4. Coffee
5. Pop Corn

In the real world:
1. I'm Jewish
2. Born again child of God
3. Cancer survivor
4. Funny

Things I would do if I were a billionaire:
1. Pay off all my families crap.
2. Invest in alternative energy forms.
3. Buy an owners cabin on a cruse ship.

Five jobs that I have had:
1. Ice cream scooper
2. Fry guy
3. Cashier
4. Night clerk
5. Disability examiner

Three of my habits:
1. Killing nazis
2. Sleeping
3. Chewing my finger nails

Five place I have lived:
1. Grand Rapids, MI
2. Oklahoma City, OK
3. Moore, OK
4. Edmond, OK
5. Thats all folks...

What do you want others to get from your blog:
People converted to Christ or for people to recommit themselves to Christ. But nothing real big.

And as for tags, I only read three personal blogs regularly and Roger has all of them tagged already.

I Think The World Is Telling Me Something...

So today I got an email for a colon cleanse sample and last week I got another credit card app for the Make A Wish Foundation. Is this what they call irony? Or is there some junk mail mastermind trying to make me mad in hopes that I'm the key to his plan to take of the world.

On another note there will be a new chapter in the story soon, I'm stuck again on which way to go.